
“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.” – Lao Tzu
Being a self-proclaimed Bikram yoga junkie and having just finished “Hell-Bent – Obsession, Pain, and the Search for Something like Transcendence in Competitive Yoga” has presented, what some may consider, a personal dilemma. This dilemma of mine only lasted all but two seconds but that in itself was long enough to take notice. Am I supporting the biggest fraud in the yoga world by practicing Bikram Yoga?
I’ve been sweating my ass off (literally) for two and a half years now. Unlike some of the other “sweaters” in my classes, who’ve had some huge chronic obstacles to overcome, knee and back surgeries, morbidly obese, diabetes, I had found I was annoyed enough with the knots in my shoulder, low energy, big hips and thighs to make some drastic changes to my fitness routine (which was, in fact, a “no fitness” routine issue!). I started going back in early 2011 and I became, full on, addicted. I lost the knots, the weight, the colds and flues, gained muscle, flexibility (how many years had it been since I could really touch my toes?). I’m a hot room addict, there is no doubt about that. I would go every day if my schedule could permit but I’ve settled into a nice 4 days a week practice. I love Bikram – or so I thought!
Now enters Benjamin Lorr with his book about….well…. really a bunch of topics ( back-bending club, the who’s who of the Bikram yoga world, pain, heat, Ms. Boobs, Tony Sanchez, etc). But the main topic is Bikram Choudhury, the founder and creator of Bikram yoga, and is his insanely narcissistic pathos. Let me begin by saying, I get it, I understand the lure of men like this and the personal challenge to, not only deal with them, but to be loved and adored by them as well. Anybody who has ever lived with a narcissist understands the compulsion to “win” a narcissist over and to be the one to “cure” them of their self-destructive behaviors and make them whole again; It will never happen and it’s a complete waste of time, but the “wanting” is still a powerful force and I get it. Mr. Lorr writes, with great and entertaining detail, about his Bikram yoga teacher training and I am convince I could never, myself, subject myself to 9 weeks of Bikram in the flesh. Just to be clear, I don’t fault anyone for having done the teacher training or anyone that, even after reading this book, wants to do the teacher training but I had my dose of Bikram for 2 hours in Boston last year and, coupled with this book, I know I could never stomach him for 9 weeks. I had imagined myself doing the teacher training someday, at some point, but I will not place myself in the same room as a man who goes out of his way to insult women (the specific paragraphs about his treatment of a women he called “Ms. Boobs” are especially disturbing), takes a man’s money and time and then tells him the day before graduation “I’m not letting you graduate because you practice at a studio I don’t like and I’m not giving you your money back!”, sexually harasses young women, and ostracize his most loyal followers from the Bikram yoga community on a whim. I don’t have any evidence that any of these stories are true, having no direct, personal experiences, but I know my stomach turned, several times, while listening to Bikram, over a year ago, because he didn’t seem to be grounded in anything other than himself and, frankly, I’m not interested in anyone’s self, least of Bikram’s self….creepy!
In short, I’ll continue with my Bikram yoga practice with a full committment to growing my own practice. It’s highly unlikely I’ll ever do the teacher training but, you never know…the entire Bikram yoga community could find themselves with a new leader one day